I’ve been struggling with finding something to write this week. I’m brimming with ideas, but have no motivation to come up with the words. I’ve toyed with just giving up this blog completely, as the stress of finding time for it isn’t really helping my mood. And that slumpiness goes beyond my blog, in to my real life. My house is a hovel, I’ve not exercised since Wednesday and I’ve been avoiding people. Thank god I read What My Fridge Says’ brilliant post about the power of music for lifting your mood and helping you to fake it ’til you make it.
Whether it’s part of depression or just a part of my personality I don’t know, but I can be sucked into what I think of as blank space. It’s a place where everything seems grey, too much effort, not worth it, pointless. My energy seeps out of me and I find it very hard to even move. Everything feels heavy and aching, it even hurts to keep my eyes open. I don’t call it a black hole, because a tiny part of me keeps me anchored to my responsibilities – I still get up, get the kids to school, go to work, put the dinner on the table. I go through the motions, but I don’t engage. I’m here, but in body only. My spirit…just isn’t.
Blank space is where I’ve found myself this week. It probably is depression, as I’m not surprised that I’ve found myself here when I’ve forgotten to take my medication for a couple of days. Why oh why have they not developed a mental health version of the contraceptive implant or patch, for people like me who suck at taking pills? But that’s a thought for another day.
my mood lifters
Today’s thought is about the power of music to change your mood. I love how Lucy describes music as being sweets for the brain. Music has always played such a big part in my life, and I’m instantly transported to a different place, time or frame of mind by the right song. I thought I would share some of my favourite mood lifters…before I go and stick them on Spotify to try and shake myself out of this blankness.
Two Doors Down, Mystery Jets
The poppy sound of this just fills me with joy, I love the 80’s vibe. And the lyrics are just too cute.
Hounds of Love, The Futureheads
I can’t find the official video, but a live version is better. A great cover of an already great song. This brings back some lovely memories, seeing them at the Benicassim festival in Spain back in 2006. Drunk on sangria, yelling my head off in a sea of other people doing the same thing.
The Sound, The 1975
I love this band. This is another one with a great pop vibe, and I love the lyrics of the chorus. Although it’s about a dysfunctional relationship, I love the idea of loving and knowing someone so much that you know them by the sound of their heart.
Real Gone Kid, Deacon Blue
Are you even Scottish if you don’t know all the words to this (or Dignity)? And there’s a reason – singing this at the top of your lungs and spinning around to the music can shake even the worst of Scottish-winter blues.
Little of Your Love, Haim
I’m a little bit obsessed with these girls. Their songs are great to sing along to, and they can really bring it when it comes to a funky wee tune.
There’s Nothing Holding Me Back, Shawn Mendes
From indie pop to all out cheese. I bloody love this, I can’t help but sing along…it’s infectious!
believe in the power of music
I could go all day with this! Looking up the videos here has already lifted my mood from when I sat down to write. That’s the power of music. Whether a tune lifts you up because of the lyrics or the melody, the tempo or the memories you associate with it, it can be an incredible mental health booster.
Not everyone agrees with that though (apparently blast Mmmbop at a grumpy person wont make them happy…), and I suppose some of that change has to come from yourself. The power of music is only as strong as you let it be. So make the conscious decision to get happy, and whack on the tunes!